i need strength. i need strength to maintain discipline. over the months, there were so many issues that were the topics of my many mental debates. its a sign that i have too much time in my hands, or that my brain has finally discovered the extra 2% of brain power that it can use. (humans supposedly use only up to 5% of brain power. for most of my 21 yrs of my life i used 1%). ok wad was i talking abt? yeah..discipline.
i got no discipline to pen my thoughts. thats a reason why i never finished my diaries/journals etc. everything was done halfway. most of my personal projects died midway. it frustrates me cos there’s no organisation. if i dun write them down, argue it out in a VISIBLE medium, i wont reach a conclusion or have that “lesson learnt” section. this is probably the effect of the excellent composition teacher i had in pri/sec/jc sch. paragraph: sentence head, body, example, conclusion. ok smth liddat.
yeah k. so there were many issues. like respect within friends, family duties, relationship, personal jealousy… ok basically, if i had religiously account my issues, this blog would have the chapter by chapter recordings of my gradual break down. im pretty sure of it.
[confessed, but not reformed]
