thought of the stuff i wanna write in the train.
feeling exactly wad MS said she was feeling during dinner. Like this sadness settling all over me. forlorn? ugh. whatever it is i feel miserable. quite miserable. and unlike MS, i cant put the blame to period. cos mine baru habis.
had a distasteful accounter with the HEAD today. UNprofessional bastard. they might as well seize his AP from his title and replace it with UP-UR-S in. bloody unfair. he is first and foremost within the walls of the class or lecture hall, an EDUCATOR. not some Grassroot member, not some Town Council chairman committee, not PAP die-hard supporter. he delivers his opinions in fucking condescending tones all the time. IF his comments are valid, or of a certain worth, credibilty, lain cerite. ni HABOK pun takde. its as if every time he spoke, he has to ensure that he brings across the point that he is superior and everyone is beneath him. he seem to ensure that his presence MUST be accompanied with at least one victimised poor soul. he has to slander at least one person. seriously what has he achieved in his life that he is all snooty-tooty. unjustified arrogance.
bodoh bahlul kecidol. sial la. theres like 16 groups presenting on issues of Town Council. 16 fucking issues. they are not of equal difficulty. not fair. i mean SERIOUSLY. some topics can smoke thru…like upgrading, public relations, littering, abuse of public properties. take alot of pictures and fund management u need INSIDER info. TRANSPARENCY my ass la….so my group had the curse of getting FUND MANAGEMENT. which is management of funds am i right? so we present on the management la. the focus is the management. not take one particular fund and focus on it, put some ears and glitter on it, add a jingle and present the damn joke and end it with striptease and some can can. he credit presentations with cheap gimmicks that include injections of hokkien dialect jokes, bad acting and stupid interviews. like some circus show. look, THAT is not creativity. THAT is cheap bad taste. look, fine. theres effort la, to inclue videos, reenact scenes, some ‘entertaining’ skit. but whatever manner but u present, however unconventional approach u take, the fundamental thing is CONTENT must be there. most skits i watched had not much content. what they had much of was cheap comic relief, and some done in bad taste. ok fine. few grps did well. their points still manage to permeate out. SJ’s grp did an excellent simulation of some debate talk show. they were creative with a degree of sophistication. SOPHISTICATION. how the fuckdoes he want us to be creative with presenting FUND MANAGEMENT.its numbers, its income statements, its sensitive matters.. what.. one, two, three, four, HI-FUND…bloody hell. fine, we could have been more creative. we COULD have simulated a debate. or smth.
and since when has the main objective of a UNIVERSITY presentation is to ENTERTAIN the fucking chauvinistic prof. NEVER. since when is the good old fashion presentation bad. im so angry at this and the worst thing is there is no avenue to fight back, to retort, to punch his god-damned face and stuff his smirk into his asshole. aaarrrggghhh. im getting even angrier cos i cant insult him properly. limited vocab.
ok. Jas cried today. i saw the rush of blood to her endearing face. i saw tears brimming, threatening to moist those sweet cheeks. uughh. it was so…heart-breaking? im not sure what i felt but i din like it. i swear i thot sbdy died. she trembled and cried and its so painful to watch but u cant tear ur eyes off her. i think cos shes almost like the baby in the group. not in a bad way, but in that protective way. immediately she appeared (to me) to be some kid that got bullied by fate. uuuggh. din like it. well it turns out, her mom went to hosp, got a jab and now staying at the aunts hse. hope she get well soon. i wudnt have cried if it happened to me. which makes her so freaking cute that she over reacted that way.
